The Girl in The Corner

Crumpled in a corner in my mind, bent and twisted in more ways than one is a girl. A scared girl, a sweet girl, a sometimes pessimistic girl, she can be fairly weird at times, and she daydreams a little too much. This girl is different than any other girl you meet, but you often don't get a chance to meet her. In her mind she lives in a world where no one calls her weird, no one hurts her, and she can walk around not having to wonder if the two girls she passed were whispering about her, but only in her mind does that world exist. In this world she has to hide, and she's afraid to care because she always cares too much, afraid to think because she always thinks to much, afraid to fall because no one ever catches her, afraid to trust because its always been broken and scared to smile because she doesn't want to get her hopes up. The world she lives in has hurt her so much that it has turned her into something she is not, a monster. Its the story of The Hulk, but she doesn't turn back. She's stuck as this girl, this rebel, this cruel optimistic person who can't control her emotions, who is sometimes scared to speak because she fears what might escape her mouth. She doesn't know what to do so she just dreams of that one person who can make her smile, who likes her because she's weird and not in spite of it, he loves how much she cares and how much she thinks and he catches her when she falls, fixes her trust and mends her heart. And she just dreams hoping everyday they will meet and she knows that no matter how long  it takes she'll find that person. But for now this girl remains a bystander in her own life because if she ever leaves the corners of my mind the world will tear her apart because there's no room for big-hearted people who hurt to much. You can't be sweet if you live in the real world she heard one day, and that sent her to the corner, and she stays there day and night gathering up the courage to walk amongst the cruel world. She's only a scared girl and I hope one day I can be her again because I hate keeping her in that corner
                                                                         -Nani